Wishing
Mood:
not sure
I wish for so many things. I wish that you were here at home and not in the desert again. I wish I could touch you, kiss you and whisper how much I love you. I wish your cat would stop chewing on stuff!
I wish I could see your blue eyes when you look at me like you're going to devour me. I wish I could hear your voice. I wish I could hear that wonderful voice sing to me just one more time. I wish I could express myself physically with you just one more time.
I wish I didn't have to wait 7 months for all this. I wish I could just fast forward through my heartache. I wish I could snap my fingers and have you home with me.
I wish so much. I feel so selfish wishing. Considering where you are, doing what you do.
I love you so much..
Posted by Kristene
at 7:51 PM EDT
Not sure I want a subject
Mood:
sad
You will be leaving the desert soon and coming home. I wish more than anything you were coming home to me. But you're not. It should be me, not her. Mistakes along the road led us here. Can't go back to change them. The future is undetermined at this point.
You tell me you're coming for me and I believe you. I don't know if I have the patience to wait it out though. I want what I want, when I want it. I am trusting you to keep your promise.
I'm in love with you. I will wait for you. Please come for me.
Posted by Kristene
at 5:20 AM EDT
My personal hero
Mood:
bright
Everyone should have their own personal hero. I have one. I've have loved him since I was a young woman. Here I am, half a lifetime later, still loving him.
You'll be home soon. In one month. I will be able to see you, hold you, kiss you. Inhale your scent. Memorize your heartbeat, every inch of your body. I want to whisper how I love you so in your ear, against your neck.
I am in love with you.
Always
Posted by Kristene
at 10:00 PM EDT
A woman in love
Mood:
happy
That would be the best way to describe me right now. In love with a man who has loved me even when I wasn't loving myself. He is beautiful, caring, strong, intelligent, sincere and honest and not afraid to express himself to me.
If you are reading this, you know who you are. You are the world to me. There is a line at the end of a famous movie.. When you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with someone, you want the rest of your life to start immediately.
Posted by Kristene
at 7:47 AM EDT
The Story of Us
Mood:
amorous
Now Playing: Crashed
We mutually agreed to write our story this past week (7/17/09). For days now, I have pondering just how I want to start my side.
When I think about our time together all those years ago and when I think of you, I still feel that warm rush throughout my body. When I talk to you, I feel like you can hear my heart pounding through that telephone line. When you tell me you love me, I catch my breath each and every time. The fact that you're six thousand miles away doesn't seem to phase me a whole lot. You have always affected me this way.
Frankly, I am amazed that after all this time that you still have that power over me. The ability to make me weak in the knees and feel the blood rush to the very center of me instantly.
I feel compelled to tell you all my secrets and I don't care what you know about me. I feel your love for me from across an ocean. You are with me each day and night. You're with me while I am sleeping, you're in my dreams. You are with me when I am running errands. You are with me always, in my heart.
I am thinking I just need to start at the beginning. Isn't that where all good love stories start?
Posted by Kristene
at 10:12 PM EDT
Are we there yet?
Just wanted to see if this would show up. I am clearly not as good with the multitasking like i thought.
Posted by Kristene
at 7:12 AM EDT
Three Little Words
Mood:
special
Three little words
who knew they would make my heart flutter so
Three little words
everyone longs to hear them
Why can't I say them to you?
I know you are thousands of miles away, making my life better
I fear for your safety and pray daily for your return home.
Three little words
I know you long to hear
You already know my heart
You are patient and understanding and oh so loving
I don't feel deserving
to hear the the Three Little Words
Posted by Kristene
at 9:51 PM EDT
Updated: July 3, 2009 10:00 PM EDT
I had a dream
Mood:
on fire
I had the dream again.
You had taken me to our park. A place we went to as teenagers. While we talked about where our lives had taken each other, we didn't realize that dusk was quickly approaching. So caught up in the moment, we stood still, looking at each other.
My heart was racing. Even all these years later, you still have the power to make me catch my breath. I believed you could actually hear my heart beating beneath my skin.
Your voice slowly became seductively deeper. You moved closer to me, realizing this was an opportunity to catch me at a weak moment. Nervousness edged me back towards the tree. I soon found myself pinned.
Standing over me, you placed both of your arms on either side of me. I felt my tongue slide carelessly over my lips thought my heart would surely explode.
With a sly smile, you leaned in a little closer and asked if I was okay. I could only stare up at your eyes. I no longer had control of my voice. I suddenly felt a cool draft on the back of my neck. You had slid your hand into my hair and slowly slid your hand down the curve of my neck, resting lightly at the base of my neck. I was sure you could feel my pulse and my feelings would be known.
You inched even closer to my face. Your voice husky with desire. Ever so slightly, you lifted my chin with the palm of your hand. You asked again if I was okay with a little more firmness in your voice. I parted my lips to speak and was again betrayed by the fact I could not use my own voice. Instead, I wet my lips again with my tongue.
You took a deep breath and moved your other arm around my waist to help me stay steady on my feet. Still pinned against the tree, I could feel I my heart racing under your touch. I caught my breath as I realized you might try to kiss me. Much to my disappointment, you simply nuzzled you lips against my cheek ever so slowly and softly. You whispered my name and began moving your hand from the base of my neck back up to cup my chin.
My lips parted slightly as you gently ran your thumb along my bottom lip. You held me tighter and closer to your body and continued to whisper my name. Pressing your body next to mine. With the tree beneath me, I had no where to go, no where I wanted to go at that moment. I was exactly where I wanted to be.
My breathing accelerated feeling your hard body next to mine. Without hesitation, I put my arms at your waist and you took this as my surrender.
"please..." I whispered. "please.."
I could hear a low chuckle escape from you searched my eyes. "Ask me" you gently commanded.
I hesitated and looked away. I could feel your hands on me. The heat from our bodies touching making me weak with desire.
"Ask me." you repeated again. I could feel your hand move from my waist and slowly slide up my ribcage, resting just beneath my breast. I was on fire and all I had to do was ask you and my sweet torment would be over. Only, I wasn't sure I wanted it to be over.
Once again, you leaned towards my ear and whispered, "I can help you, you just need to ask me."
No longer to able to help myself and no longer wanting to hold back, I pleaded, "please help me. I need you so badly."
The next thing I felt was your mouth on mine, soft and tender. Like I had always imagined. I held onto you for fear I would fall. Your strong arms kept me falling and held me tight. I could feel your hands move over me and I held onto you tightly.
I could feel your tongue seek entrance into my very eager mouth and I moaned. Your hunger for me increased and your sensual kiss deepened. Slow, seductive at first then you became aggressive and dominating. I could taste every part of you. My body wanting more.
You pulled away, looked at me with deep blue eyes and whispered, "I have waited a lifetime for you."
My eyes began to fill with tears, I softly said, "I love you."
Posted by Kristene
at 9:18 PM EDT
Updated: July 2, 2009 10:49 PM EDT
Something I scribbled
Mood:
amorous
We were so young when we met
You took my breath away at first glance
Who knew I would fall so hard
Who knew we'd never get to dance
Fast foward to another life
My love never changed
Always had my heart
Why did we fail?
Battered and bruised
life went on
How could you leave me?
How could you move on?
One day if our hearts reconnect
I hope and pray our love will renew
I want to tell you
I love you
Oh how I love you
Please don't forget me
You mean so much to me
Never stop loving me
I need to know
was this meant to be?
Posted by Kristene
at 9:51 PM EDT
Updated: July 1, 2009 10:00 PM EDT
